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Not even Starbucks helped this day!

So, I did my usual today.  I walked, I came home and cooled off and then did my workouts.  I did my French and then relaxed a bit.  I had lunch and then did a few things that I needed to do.  I went to take a bath.  I was in there enjoying the nice, hot, steamy water. My friend called and wanted to know what I was doing. I said I was in the tub!  She said, "Nevermind, I wanted you to go with me somewhere."  I told her if she'd drive me to Starbucks I'd get out of the tub. LOL  She said okay if we hit the drive thru.  I agreed and we did!  I got a cascara latte.  Big surprise there, eh?

We drove her son to get him something to eat and since we were near the post office, I asked if she'd run me by there.  She agreed.  I had an ad, my bank statement, and one pen pal letter.  I went back to her house for a while to see all the dogs.  I also got to see the kitties. :p  I stayed until a little after 9 and came home.  I needed to fix dinner, but I really didn't want to.  I did it anyway after a while.  

I answered questions on Quora and did a small blog post there and then came here to do my daily blog post.  I'm having a hard time today.  I got stressed at my friend's house for reasons I won't go into.  I am so tired of being broke and having to depend on people to take me places I need to go.  I would have only gotten to go to the places I did today because my friend was already going out for something else.  She has never once in the three years my car has been messed up, offered to carry me anywhere. ~_~;  

Also, one of my friend's pets passed and she posted the Rainbow Bridge poem. I cannot read that without breaking down.  I still miss my precious JoJo that I lost in July of 2011.  He was my best friend and truly the love of my life. <3


Saying goodbye...

Tonight I went to my local Kmart to pick up my prescriptions for the last time.  The pharmacy is closing on the 14th of this month.  I'm not happy about that. The store is closing after the beginning of the year.  The pharmacy is going to be closed a lot sooner.  I will miss them.  The people at this location were all really nice.  I liked going there.  I will have to get used to another pharmacy and I don't really want to have to do that.  They are sending all their files over to the CVS that is near them.  I asked them to send mine to the CVS that is closer to my house. It's an easy walk to get there, so even if I'm having car issues, I can go and pick up my prescriptions.  

After leaving Kmart, I was going to Starbucks but then I just ended up coming home.  I might go later this week.  I'm sort of waiting for a double star day.  I might get that tumbler if they still have it, but I want to wait until they are doing the double star day!  That will give a me a lot of stars. ^_^


Starbucks again? Maybe.

So, I was sitting at home minding my own business when I got a text that stressed me the hell out.  I decided that I couldn't sit at home anymore so I got in my car (it was acting up on the way) and went to the post office to check my box.  Two letters!  I then came to Starbucks.  Tonight's experience was much better than last nights!  I got my latte and a chocolate chip cookie.  They were both delicious.  I was able to get a seat right away, but then I moved to a little table.  The place I was sitting was invaded by a noisy kid and that wasn't going to improve my mood one bit!

So, I am sitting here blogging and I've written two letters.  One that I already had and one of the two I got on the way over here.  I'll write the other one before I go or I might just save it as I just got it today!  Who knows?  The other one was unusual.  I never write back on the day I get letters. LOL  OH well.

I walked today and got in my workouts.  It was ab day. Ouch.  I did those, and then relaxed a bit before fixing lunch.  I am not sure what I'll fix for dinner.  That is some time away, so I guess I'll figure that out. Anyway, my stress levels have come down some since I got here, but I'm still a bit on the stressed side.  I still have to get home with my crazy car.

The reason for my stress?  I've lived in the house I grew up in since I was 3 years old.  My sister actually owns it.  I may be out on the street.  Considering that I'm on disability, I can't very well get a place to rent.  I hardly get by as it is.  I just don't know what to do at this point.  I'm just going to try to think of other things.  The coffee will help some. It's a good thing I don't smoke or drink!  I'd been up to five packs a day and drinking straight out of the bottle.  Did I mention that my sister who works full time wants ME to send HER money to help with the taxes on the house?! UGH


Life is tough

It's just been a very long day.  I didn't even leave the house.  I am just tired of everything it seems.  I was going through my bullet journal today and realized that I had absolutely NOTHING to put on my birthday memories page that I created some time back.  I covered the things I had written and then glued in a fresh page.  I thought I'd have something to put in there.  I didn't get to really do anything for my birthday.  I went through the drive thru at Starbucks.  That was the highlight of my day.  

So, yeah, not having a good time.  I also have depleted almost all the money on my Starbucks card.  I can't even go to Starbucks to make myself feel better. :(